Oh man...the last three weeks have been a struggle, to say the least. But it all culminated this morning into a huge mess. Henry woke us up at 5:30 - Travis goes in there to give him his water and lay him back down in hopes of getting another 30 minutes of sleep. HA! As soon as he enters the room, he runs back out and asks me if I have a strong digestive system this morning. I think, "oh gosh, why is he asking me this?" Then the smell wafts through the air. Vomit.
I'll spare all of the details, but they include a couple more times of throwing up, some "death" poops, and three baths!!! Ah the joys of being a mother! I do have to commend Travis for cleaning up the vast majority of the mess - he has been such a great helpmate to me in these last 3 weeks.
And speaking of the last three weeks, well I just want to block them out. As you all know from our brilliant shirt idea, we are pregnant (well mostly me). I have had some pretty horrible ALL DAY sickness that I can't seem to shake. I was sick with Henry but not to this degree (girl??). My weight has plummeted to an all-time low, due to the excessive nausea and vomiting. My midwife prescribed me Zofran - that didn't touch this stuff. Basically, I'm pretty miserable to be around.
So where do you turn when things are down? GOD!! Let me tell you - I've kept in constant communication with Him these past weeks. At first, I was praying for complete healing - a miracle of sorts. Nothing happened. I start feeling doubtful and hopeless. Poor poor me. Then a revelation. I need to be praising God for this miracle, praising Him for this time of suffering because of what it will bring. James 1:2 says "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance mush finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
WOW! Talk about an attitude change - a HARD one at that! Morning sickness is pure joy?!? YES - because it's making me stronger and more complete. Just the type of mother I want to be to this new life.
Please keep us in your prayers. I'll keep you and yours in mine!
3 comments:
praying for you today! Thank you for sharing your heart and your struggles. Whenever I'm completely overwhelmed, I do find comfort in the fact that I think these hard times are making me a better person, a better wife, a better mother, and a better follower of Christ. But I know the sickness is frustrating and right now, seems nearly impossible. I also took comfort in the fact that the little girls would not remember the miserable 9 months we had (I had to be far more intentional with Maggie, since she's at an age where she may be able to remember). HANG IN THERE!
I'm so proud of you for choosing to look at it this way, Lindsay; it does my heart good! I know during the time we were trying to get pregnant, I promised myself that whenever the time did come, I WOULD NOT complain about any stage of it. Its surprisingly easy to complain, I've discovered : ) You are wise about keeping your focus in front of you in the midst of the struggles; we all need that greater hope set in front of us during a messy time. This too shall pass, and you will have your reward! I love you.
Thanks for the words of encouragement, girls!!! They really mean so much and it's nice to know that people understand what I'm going through. It is so hard not to complain - you just want people around you to understand why you're so crabby and to get a glimpse of how you feel. But who wants to be around that!?! Not me! I just keep praying for God's strength and healing - it will come.
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